Saturday, December 30, 2006

Every new year, as the begning of jan.
we have many dreams and goals
we have many new things to plan

this year i looked deep inside me
i searched hard
to find what my goal would be

i held a pen and started to write
some words,
some thoughts,
all came in a sight
i'm done now, reading what i wrote,

then i stoped for a while and said:
"A writer!?", that's what i thought,
that's what my goal is.

as the new year started
i searched , learnt and worked hard
here i am now, as you can see
you are all reading my words

as for the next year, my goal would be
to become the best writer in the world

Tuesday, December 26, 2006


where my first niece was born =)
a cute little missy LOJAYN.....oh God! she's adorable, it's my 1st time to c a new born child..she's our 1st grandchild.
she's really angalic and soooooooooooooooooooooo cute (yeah coz she looks like my sis lol) thank God she's well so is dina, we all went with her to the hospital.
everyone was pretty nervous, worried and happy =D, ahmed was SO SO NERVOUS, he even cried when dina entered the room (tht was so sweet).
i was so happy when i saw the child and...surprised too lol, can't believe i'm an aunt looool.
i think i'm getting old..after dina gave birth our childhood memories flashed upon my eyes....i remembered when we were kids...and everything we used to make then looked up at a pic for me , dina and yasmeen when we were young , i was so young tht i had 2 pony tails lool.
we grew up too fast...
tht's amazing...
yasmeen is going to give birth in april i guess...awwww i can't wait to see the 2nd baby :)...isA isA i'll be the best aunt ever =)

p.s: wish me luck my exams r soooo soooooon =(

Friday, December 15, 2006

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real, or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
*I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly, placed your eyes on me
Did you, ever know
That I had mine, on you?* =)

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure?
If frown is shown, then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart, beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I love your peaceful eyes on me
Did you, ever know
That I had mine, on you?

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out, then
You will know that, you are not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly, but sure?
If frown is shown, then
I will know that you are no dreamer

*eyes on u , final fantasy sound track , i found it on mero's blog, and totaly loved it
i dedicate it to Mr. anonymous.... will he ever get to read it?*
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

*did anyone thought of this one day....for me i'm tht kind of ppl who loves to prove how much they love the others but tht's not for tomorrow...i just feel like the ppl i love wont know how much i really do love now i wonder...if my tomorrow never comes...will they know how much i loved them??
the song is just amazing but do these ppl exist?? or it's just a song....?? lol i'd b the luckiest person on earth if someone truly felt tht way for me =D but... i think they all vanished since 1973 loool*

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Belle:There's something sweet
And almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
But now he's dear, and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before

Beast:She glanced this way
I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No it can't be, I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before

Belle:New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see

Lumiere:Well, who'd have thought?
Mrs Potts:Well, bless my soul
Cogsworth:Well, who'd have known?
Mrs Potts:Well, who indeed?
Lumiere:And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?
Mrs Potts:It's so peculiar. Wait and see
Lumiere and Cogsworth:We'll wait and see
All three:A few days more There may be something there that wasn't there before
Cogsworth:Perhaps there's something there
That wasn't there before

*told ya i love the movie =D ; ) *

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends
Then somebody bends
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffJust a little change
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffSmall to say the least
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffBoth a little scared
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffNeither one prepared
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffBeauty and the Beast
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffEver just the same
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffEver a surprise
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffEver as before
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffEver just as sure
dfdfddfdsfsdfsdfdsfdsfsdfffffffffffffffffffffffdfdsfsAs the sun will rise
dfdsfsdfsdfdfdsfdfsdfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfTale as old as time
dsfsdfdsfsdfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfsdfsdfdsfdsfdsTune as old as song
dsfdsfsdfdsfdsfdsfsdfdsfsdfsdfsdfdsfsdfsdBittersweet and strange
dfdsfdsfdsfdsfsdfsdfdsfsdfdsfsdfsdfsdfdsdFinding you can change
sdfsdfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsffdsfdLearning you were wrong
sfsdfsdfsdfdsfdsfsdfdsfdsfdsfdsfdsfdCertain as the sun
sdfsdfdsfdsfsdfdsfdsfdfdfdfdsfdfdsffRising in the east
fdsfsdfsdfsdfdsfsdfdsfdfdsfdsfdfdffffTale as old as time
sdfdsfdsfsdfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffSong as old as rhyme
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffBeauty and the Beast
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffTale as old as time
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffSong as old as rhyme
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffBeauty and the Beast

*one of my fav cartoons ever =) sweet , touching and romantic ,full of emotions*

Friday, December 08, 2006

Mary-Ann and Wanda were the best of friends
All through their high school days
Both members of the 4H Club
Both active in the FFA
After graduation Mary-Ann went out lookin' for a bright new world
Wanda looked all around this town and all she found was Earl
Well it wasn't two weeks after she got married
That Wanda started gettin' abused
She put on dark glasses and long sleeved blouses
And make-up to cover a bruise
Well she finally got the nerve to file for divorce
She let the law take it from there
But Earl walked right through that restraining order
And put her in intensive care
Right away Mary-Ann flew in from Atlanta
On a red eye midnight flight
She held Wanda's hand as they worked out a plan
And it didn't take 'em long to decide
That Earl had to die!(nanana...)
Goodbye Earl
Those black-eyed peas (nanana...)
They tasted all right to me, Earl
You feelin' weak (nanana...)Why don't you lay down and sleep, Earl
Ain't it dark (nanana...)
Wrapped up in that tarp, Earl?
The cops came by to bring Earl in
They searched the house high and low
Then they tipped their hats and said,"Thank you ladies if you hear from him let us know"
Well the weeks went by and
spring turned to summer
And summer faded into fall
And it turns out he was a missing person who nobody missed at all
So the girls bought some land and a roadside standOut on Highway 109
They sell Tennessee ham and strawberry jam
And they don't lose any sleep at night
'Cause Earl had to die
Goodbye Earl
We need a break...........
Let's go out to the lake, Earl
We'll pack a lunch (nanana...)
And stuff you in the trunk, Earl
Well is that all right? (nanana...)
Good!Let's go for a ride, Earl
Hey! (nanana...)
Oh, hey hey hey! (nanana...)
Aww, hey hey hey! (nanana...)
Well,hey hey hey (nanana...)

Dixie Chicks : Goodbye Earl

* hurt me and u'll be like earl lool =D *

Thursday, December 07, 2006

yesterday was a very rainy one...but i walked under the rain...(ma3 eny 3andi bard we ta2reban 2ala be nazla me3aweya now ).
i love the rain so so so much....i don't know why but i feel it romantic =D (weird)
i wish it can rain everyday...rain always reminds me with good memories
also el da3wa betkon mostagaba feeh =) i love praying alot in this time...
oh! and in meditation it's totally PERFECT!
i love rain
i love rain
ana et3'ara2t
hatshooooooooh (elhumdolelah) =D

qoute * i love to walk under the rain...where no one can recognize my tears*

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

oh God =( i can't feel my hands or mind anymore , or i feel more like...when, where, who and why....
looool i think i'm nuts yes i very much nuts (wht does tht mean anyways loool)
ummm , yeah i wanna sleep but no time for sleeping tht's funny!!!!
since when sleeping is a waste of time??? since i entered 3rd grade =D heheh
wht else....
oh food yes food...i got tht human being can live without eating for LOADS of days =D, guess wht! i proved this theory LIVE!. ummmm but i think it caused anemia loool.
i don't know wht the hell i'm writing !!!
y am i writing!!!!!
as if i have plenty of time to do so =D
my head is hurting.....
ouch!everything is hurting!!!

i'll go now.

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

sometimes i ask my self...
why r school and colgs r here??
why do they make us learn?
it's not as it seems to at all...coz even's one of our bigest problems here...
and the worst thing is...the we already know this.
can't we have just one thing prefectly good? coz it might be the soulition which gonna solve many things after it.
we r gonna finnish our lectuers on 25/12....start exams on 8/1 or maybe 6/1....and we have our exams day after day....
For God's sake! how is this fair!!??? i don't think tht the person who decided this a normal human being....
since the colg started and it took all of my time... i rarly go out with my friends or even best friend, i rarely sit with my family, i come home at 6 and 8 pms , sometimes i stay awake and don't sleep till colg time, my day always start at 9 am in the morning, i'm tired and tired everyday...have loads of things 2 do everyday...even at the holiday i usually go to colg or the library to do some work...
i love my colg...and adore wht i'm doing and learning and really i feel this yr is one of my best coz i feel i'm REALLY learning something...but ppl....plz mercy......plzzzzzzzz.
for those who r reading this....plz wish me luck, and plz pray for me...
thnx =)

Sunday, November 19, 2006

two very different people
too scared to get along
till two hearts beat together
underneath one sun
one very special moment
can turn a destiny
and what some would say
could never change
has changed for you and me
'cause it's all, it's all in the way you look through your eyes
and when all is said and done
all of the fear and all of the lies arenot hard to overcome
it's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong
we were two (we were two)
now we are one
we are two very different people
so much to overcome
so why care for one another
when there's so much to be done
cause sometimes it’s necessary just look how far we’ve come
you could say my friend that
it’s the end
or a new tale has begun
'cause it's all, it's all in the way youl ook through your eyes
and when all is said and done
all of the fear and all of the lies arenot hard to overcome
it's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong
we were two (we were two)
now we are one
one moment in time
is all the time we need
just to make a difference
to make it better for you and for me
it you just believeoh yeah
just open your eyes'cause it's all, it's all in the way you
look through your eyes
and when all is said and done
all of the fear and all of the lies arenot hard to overcome
it's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong
we were two (we were two)now we are one
oh yeah, oh yeah
we were two
now we are one

" i love this song...and it's how i feel for today, don't know y?"

Friday, November 10, 2006

i can't leave my hair tall...never's against the rules lol my rules.
so i had to go to the hairdresser ASAP!
when i pointed with my finger to show her the high i want ( i guess i pointed wrong or she saw it wrong).... she cut it shorter than i wanted =D so it's..... tooo short now.
but it looks really cool, i look completely diff. it the st time to cut it tht short lol. looks like meg rayan's in french kiss movie lol, yes it's THT short!
atleast i wont wear any hair clips or anything like tht, just maybe 2 little tic tocs =)
i'll get used to it soon =D
shahinaz will kill me when she sees me =D (rabena yostor)
*taking a deep breathe* now i feel better...
as i always say...i usually cut my hair when i'm in a bad new look makes me feel i'm a new person...
short hair ROCKS!
maybe it's i ruleZ lol.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

i feel i'm a stranger here, am i a human? some times i doubt in tht
nothing is appreciated in this life...not love...not care....almost nothing
i can't trust love....don't wanna feel this word anymore
i can't feel it....
never thought tht love would break me like tht one day...just wish i can blow up , lose my memory or just shoot my self!
oh God plz help me
ur the only one i trust
i hate to be weak
plz plz plz get me out of here

(yeah y would ever someone care to read my....... )

it's mine and islam's cute candy birthday, wish u the best bd ever my lovely candy
and i hope u'd b happy for ever ya rab
me and u and islam togther isA we sherbeny fel seka looooooooool
love u hunny bunny (muwhaaa to u)

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

And i miss u like the desert miss the rain....

remember tht song?....

i really do miss u and when i need u i just remember the old days

it's been along time but it's out of our hands i know, and i guess ur starting to understand this too.

we both love eachothers and will always b togther no matter wht happened

come wht may....yes i say tht from my heart

i still miss u alot though i feel lonely, and i'll feel lonely even more when u r busy with ur new love, but i'm happy coz u r, seeing ur smile is like having everything lovely in the world

would u just promise me to take care of ur self? it's all wht i'm asking for .

can't tell u how happy i was to c ya last time....but needed 2 c u the the nxt coz felt like i wanted to fall in ur arms and weep so much u know why

i still need u so much i feel lost, confused , hesitated.

i know u might not read this i still didn't tell u tht i made a blog already (don't ask me y but i really don't know) maybe i don't wanna make u worried abt u

anyways as i said....plz take care plz

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Me and Myself

Every time we talk
You always start a fight
You don't want to face me
You always run and hide
Stop it---admit and say
That you are special in a way
Believe in all what you say or do
You got to believe in me !!
As I believe in you…
We can't b somebody else
We can only be me and you *my self*
That's why I'm proud
And will say this out loud
"I'm so glad to be
the one and only me" SunShine

"tht's wht i wrote for december's issue GO BUY THE MAG EVEN IF U DON'T LIKE IT! =D"

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Waiting for someone:

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

~ i got tht email once...i found it nice =) but is there any guy who can like tht?
so2al yatra7 nafso :p~

Sunday, October 22, 2006

"Awwwwwwwwwwwww my dear Shams.....You have to be the most wonderful person in the universe Shams. You are so very sweet and caring. You have an amazing personality and your very intellegent. If I was over there with you I would spend every second of my life with you because you make me so happy. I would give you all the attention you would need and I would stand up for you when you need it. I would always be there for you expecially in your time of need. You trully mean alot to me and you trully bring my life off of the ground and let me fly around. You are the most perfect person in the universe. You are a trully special person, a one of a kind. Think of this when you are sad "All the pain you go through now will turn in to happiness in ur life" Im sure you will be the happiness person in the whole world soon enough expecially if I have something to do with it. Dont ever let anybody bring you down because you will always be a princess to me. You are royalty and you will find that out later in your life. You may not be of royal blood but in my heart you are. My dear Shams you make me so happy and you only deserve the best of everything in life and in heaven.
Love Travis Mullen"
C guys i'm a princess =D lol. tht was one of my pen friends' emails from the USA he's really one gr8 guy he was so nice and kind we used to email eachothers daily and we even spent the valentine's day chatting togther (we were both singles lol) it was the 1st time for me to spend the valentine's day with someone else than my bestfriend.
i keep all his letters and emails i got one letter from him and loads of emails and e~cards =) too bad we both got busy and don't contact eachothers anymore =( maybe it's the end of our friendship , but i'm not sad coz we both left something in eachother's life which will make us remember eachothers forever :) , i'm happy coz u were once my friend Travis , maybe we wont c eachothers anymore but u r unforgettable and u mean so much to me, when i'm so sad or upset i keep reading ur emails =) i adore them.
Really miss u my friend hope ur fine and happy u deserve the best and thank u for making me happy and appreciating me tht much u r the 1st who really treated me as a princess.

Thursday, October 12, 2006

"Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I cant take the person starin back at me
Im a hazard to myself
Dont let me get me
Im my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Dont wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else"~ pink

u can call it a deep depression , y? i don't know. then who knows then?! EL 3AFRET! yeah maybe.
sometimes i wonder...y would ever someone care to read my blog??!
enough for today...i'll go hide btw my pillows for a while.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

For the first time ever..... ANA ETSHA3LA2T FEL MINIBUS!
me and my friends wanted to go home after was 3:00pm , so it was egypt's rush crowdy hour. no taxi , no anything to was a hotty ramadan day, we kept standing till.... it was almost 4:30 pm.
God! we gotta go home!!! we were so tired after a long day starting from 7 am, so we were so sleepy , tired and everything u can imagine.
we r still standing looking for ANYTHING we can ride, as me and my friend fed up, she graped my hand and we jumped into a minibus then i realized tht i'm hanging in it with one foot on the front stair and one hand holding the door :S.
it was really nice to feel the air from everywhere :D it's like a....big window lol. but as we were in ramadan and ppl were acting to be kind and helpfull they helped me to go into the minibus and then a guy offered his seat =D.
i was so lucky tht day i even knew tht the minibus was going to a place near my home =D and tht was pretty amazing for me!! finaly i'm going home!!!
after i got home and break my fast, i thought for a while.... i felt so sorry for the ppl who have to suffer everyday in the's really HELL!
i was so happy telling my mom abt my journey tht day =D..but...she...SCREAMED AT ME... =D bagad she paniced and asked me never ever to do tht again!! and i'd rather walk than to do tht once again =D.
i don't have to tell u wht did dad say abt it!! lol =D

egypt's trafic....i hate u :)

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Too bad tht sweet feelings don't remain forever....
ppl change and some of them leaves u hanging ,wishing u can find the persn u loved once more.
but they shock u by forgetting, as if nothing happened , as if u were a shadow.
maybe it's fate....
or maybe they still don't know how they meant to u.
one day they will know...and maybe regret for letting u go.
it's hard for me to turst one of the sweetest feelings from someone again. i even some times feel it doesn't exists.
No more " I love u" as the songs says lol.
no more tears
no more pain
and no more trust.

Monday, October 02, 2006

sometimes i wish things weren't like tht....or it never happened at all but it happened for a very good reason yes i'm sure.
the thing is can i move over once again? maybe i shouldn't....or i guess i have to.
can i start again? forget the whole thing....
i'm afraid
yes i am....
is there any second chance? sure there is. i should make it right this time...but i wasn't wrong in the 1st time!
i'll pray and wait....
if someone wants me..he wont let me go? yeah he will fight even for a while
against all odds....
come wht may....
maybe they rn't just words

Thursday, September 28, 2006

What goes through your mind?
As you sit there looking at me
Well I can tell from your looks
That you think I’m so oppressed
But I don’t need for you to liberate me
My head is not bare
And you can’t see my covered hair
So you sit there and you stare
And you judge me with your glare
You’re sure I’m in despair
But are you not aware
Under this scarf that I wear
I have feelings, and I do care

CHORUS:So don’t you see?
That I’m truly free
This piece of scarf on me
I wear so proudly
To preserve my dignity...
My modesty
My integrity
So don’t judge me
Open your eyes and see...
“Why can’t you just accept me?” she says
“Why can’t I just be me?” she says
Time and time againYou speak of democracyY
et you rob me of my liberty
All I want is equality
Why can’t you just let me be free?

For you I sing this song
My sister, may you always be strong
From you I’ve learnt so much
How you suffer so much
Yet you forgive those who laugh at you
You walk with no fear
Through the insults you hear
Your wish so sincere
That they’d understand you
But before you walk away
This time you turn and say:But don’t you see?
That I’m truly free
This piece of scarf on me
I wear so proudly
To preserve my dignity
My modesty
My integrity
So let me be
She says with a smile
I’m the one who’s free

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Last beat

Blup dup...blup dup
my heart beat stopped...
i woke up and found
many ppl gathering around
it seems i'm dead
they r all crying loud

oh God! i'm in a gr8 pedition
no more chances
too l8 for submission
my life is full of sins...
so how am i going to stand btw ur hands?
how am i going to face u?
if i took my book with my left hand
how did u keep talking to my friends?
and 4get to pray the dawn
none of my friends r with me now
i'm dead and all alone

how can i b such a fool?
and didn't realize everything you gave to me
how can i be so cruel?
and don't thank u for wht u did to me
wish i could turn back time
and do my best to reach heaven
it's too l8 to regret...
but can i still b forgiven?

blup dup...blup dup
my heart beats again
thank God it was just a dream
so plz 4give my sins
My merciful lord
thank you for ur bless
thank you for giving me another chance
and reminding me of death

Monday, September 25, 2006

it's not like every yr =( i don't know y , last yr was better than this one.... it was like real ramadan...i miss the old ramadans anyways loool....
seems tht i love the old's true i like to keep all the old stuff the reminds me of ppl or events. yeah my disk doesn't have any books or colg notes or anything it's full of papers and other weird things like cinema's tickets, letters , cards, pix and some coins....
i feel so lonely in here....after i used to have the eftar with my parents and 2 it's only me and mom :( , my both sisters r married now...and dad is mostly working and can't join us :(
something strange happened to me.... one of my old friends called me a guy from my english lesson to tell me happy ramadan...i was so happy :) he usually calles me every now and then to check on me which was so sweet of him coz i rarely ring him aslan....
there was another friend too with him...we used to take the english lesson at 3rd sec. and it was the funniest lessons i used to take... always loved it they were awesome looooool
me and shahinaz used to laugh like hell , it's gr8 we kept in touch till nowdays....
well...when ahmed called i totally forgot to ask him abt abdel rahman... :( so i said 2 my ok i'll call ahmed soon isA any maybe we can meet all of us wala 7aga...we used to spend very very very good days i wont ever 4get them :) was shainaz , she said...."guess who called?"," who?". shahinaz" ahmed alaa!" , me" ohh he just called me too we byslem 3aleki :), so how is abd elrahman?"
shahinaz," shams....abd elrahman mat". , me" EH!! ENTY BET2OLY EH!!"..shahinaz," ah ya benty walahi ahmed lesa 2ayely...3aml 7adsa fel new yr ely fat." me , "shahinaz wht the hell ur saying!!! enty btklmy bgad...ezay...!!!
one thing poped in my mind....i remembered the valentine day..when he gave eachone of us...a chocolate heart shape....and we rot our names on it.....

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

i miss me as a child though i feel i'm still a child =D i'm a big child
i still have most of my dolls and bears even my powerpuff gurls dolls! yeah i love them!
tht pic reminds me of some gr8 memories...i'm tht little one on the rit wearing a red strange sweatshirt lool, then the little kid is my neighbour, then my sister yasmeen wearing the dark green sweatshirt (mom made it) then the one on the left is my neighbour's sister... they were our next door neighbours we knew eachothers long long ago even b4 i was born....we were like a family spend most of our times togthers , birthdays , outtings almost everything but they just moved few yrs ago :( and wern't close as b4.
tht day in the pic was the new year...and we were celebrating at our house we did thoses cute maskas =) they were gorgeous....and we had some ballons and dicoration...then mom cooked some cool food and dad brought us some presents all of us...we also used to have a medium christmas tree with all the balls and stars on it.
it was a gr8 day with loads of fun we played played and played =D
oooh childhood.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Am i weird or it's just my hair? looool
i dunno i feel i'm....not like the others :D or maybe i c life from a completely different view.
it's funny how some ppl act...esp the mean ppl who r doing their best to bother me
c'mon guys!
i'm not tht bad am i?
some ppl said i'm cute , sweet , kind and even smart !
honestly i believe i'm just a funny person who love to make others happy...kinda think it's my job here =D
so no need to be jealous from me :S (i hate to say tht) but look around u'll find ppl how REAL cute , sweet and smart :D and whtever
u really don't have to love me...but don't try to pretend so coz i know from the heart tht u don't like me at all =D
It hurts when u act so tough
but i'm sure i'm still ur love
you want me 2 4get
but how can i do tht?
when i still feel u around
i still c ur picture
i still hear ur sound
and u want me 2 4get
but how can i do tht?
Do i 4get how much u loved me?
how can i do tht?....
how can it be?
when u promised me once....
tht u'll never leave me
No doubt! i believed u in tht
even when things went alittle bad
Trust me....
wht happened isn't against us at all
God wanted to catch us b4 we could fall
cause if we fell we wont get up
and maybe our love spark would stop
So don't worry....
wait and u'll c
God want the best for u and me
i know u'll still ask me 2 4get
but really...
i can't do tht.

"tht was the 1st topic i posted in teenstuff boards =) yeah a poem! and thank God many ppl liked it =D it made like 3 pages when it was there....i made this blog to write my poems in it so i thought abt riting the old ones's not my best but it's one of my fav. hope u like it too ;) beeep =D"

Sunday, September 17, 2006

it was one cool day thought it started with a scary morning lol!
ok when i was ridding in the minibus on my way to colg , and there was tht gurl beside me when i saw a big spider with very thin , tall legs :S!!! and yes i hate insects so did she =D so i was paniced :O !! but i kinda freaked her out looool
then i arrived colg peacfully...
i was gonna say to hi to a friend but i found her screaming " WE HAVE A LECTURE NOW!!" =D loool so i ran to catch the lecture and found my friends inside..ohhhh i missed them alot esp, shroq and mona :)
but really i was soooooo happy to c them all !!
the subject seems interesting this term photography , directing , psychology..... it's a busy year
i hope from my heart to do my best....and get emtyaz ya rab!!!
wish me luck ;)

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Although u easily get nervous....
Although u don't understand me sometimes....
Although u spend most of ur time at work...
i really miss u when ur there....
and love u so much....
ur so kind and lovely...never saw someone with ur's coz ur my father....but everyone who knows u says so...u should hear wht my arabic teacher used to say abt u he once told me " babaky dah ana bay7rgny be zo2o 3ala tool , aqna batkesf men kotr el 2adab ely hwa feeh" he also told me tht i'm like u shewaya.....
i'm proud to b...wish i can make u proud of me too....
tht day when u appeared on TV i told alllllllll my friends =D i was sooooo happy loooool
u looked gorgeous i always loved tht blue suit on u ;)
i know tht title u took "safer masry lel seya7a" isn't a big thing at all =D but it seemed like u became the president or something loool esp when u were checking hands with ahmed nazef...and thoese other ppl i don't know.... =D
ur so tender....trying to make everyone happy....can't 4get tht day when we went to the grave yard and i kept u kissed me and hugged me....ohhhh it was the best hug i ever had!!!! was so warm and tender....
oh!! i saw u when u teared at my sister's weddings!!! i never wanted anyone to notice huh!!
ur the best dad anyone can have....thank God u stopped smoking i was pretty worried abt u
just plzzzzz don't be nervous keda men 2a2al 7aga :( and plllllllllz calm down when i drive the car =D u know i should b driving u one day....
love u
thank u for everything u did and everything u want to do for me
for making everyone happy as long as u can

i new colg yr :( ...... u know this yr is the worst ever......
everything was terrible :D * bas elhumdolelah*
ya3ni...colg was terrible esp doctors :S they were asking for weird stuff :S (don't understand it wrongly u bad minds =D).
well putting ur final exam :S is a weird thing isn't it?
one of the doc. who likes me and my best friend asked us to put or final exam....beta3 el dof3a kolaha :D ofcours we didn't tell anyone....but it was weird...for a while i felt like doing a wrong thing :S bas ya3ni.... i put an exam :D
ummm...there was tht doc who gave me and my group 4/10 :D though we were the best.... i cried alot when i knew the grades, and when we went for her...simply she said " oh it was mistake :(...isA tet3wad nxt term :S?!!!
all i can say is.....7asbona Allah wa ne3ma el wakel feki ya Omima!!! yala kolo bytla3 fel 3'aseel :D
tht was really frustrating i wanted to skip tht yr esra7a bas aho...elhumdolelah

wht else was bad.....
my beloved grannie's death....the whole thing was a shock
it was all in a sudden....sub7an grandpa was the one who was ill....then she fell apart mara wa7dawithout even complaining from something.....
i can't forget these days....been hard for all of us...esp my dad... he used to visit her everyday...and stay at my grandpa's...also cheering everyone up as if everything is ok...
i loved u grandma....i loved everything abt her....she was the kindest person i ever seen....she loved me sooooo much and she was totaly the best cooker ever!!! i loved her food more than my mom's lool , she was extremly beautifull too she had a dark green eyes like ambers (my other granie had a lovely blue eyes ,i wonder y my eyes r dark brown then >_<)....and her hair was a silky,light brown one, when she was young....and when she got old she looked amazing with white hair!!!
simply....she's lovely , sweet , kind , and everything nice and pretty :)
miss u granie....wish u could c me as a bride as u always wanted.....
i'm glad i dreamt of u b4 u pass away....glad tht i kissed u one last time b4 u go....
i'm a bit lucky

another bad thing......
me and beloved seems we r crumbling....i don't know but we r not the same maybe coz we both got busy....
she says i hurt her.....and i feel she did.... no matter who did... i love her as i always do...
and need her beside me like always.... both of us been through hard times and i understand tht
just hope she does too
love u shahinaz

" i think it's one sad , frustrating post =D lool so i'll probably end it wasn't my year :D "

Saturday, September 09, 2006

it's the first time to rit a song =)
actually i have this turkish rock song called (one moment with u) so i wrote an english lyric for it....

One moment with you

Don't tell me it's over
don't tell me we are apart
no, don't kill me with these words
don't leave me with a broken heart (*2)
it doesn't really matter
who was wrong or right
all i want is one moment with you
to feel you by my side (*2) chours
for the sake of the love we had
can we still work things out?
i still love you from my heart
should i scream it out loud?
it doesn't really matter
who was wrong or right
all i want is one moment with you
to feel you by my side (*2) chours
for the sake of the love we had
can we still work things out?
i still love you from my heart
should i scream it out loud?

it doesn't really matter
who was wrong or right
all i want is one moment with you
to feel you by my side (*2) chours
to feel you by my side
to feel you by my side

it's not so bad isn't it?

Thursday, September 07, 2006

No romantic girl
"Don't think of me
Don't love me
Something broke my heart long time ago
Someone stoned my heart
I don't even remember who
I can't be in love
'cause I'm no romantic girl
I'm not that tough
but I just don't know how to be in love
Don't try to hold me
Don't wish to be with me
Don't ask me to love you
I don't want to hurt you
I've tried to be in loveOnce, twice & even more
it just makes my heart sore
I can't be in love'cause I'm no romantic girl
I'm not that tough
but I just don't know how to be in love
Leave me
& just let go
Hate me
I'm not the one for you
I won't be in love'cause I'm no romantic girl
I'm not that tough
but I just don't know how to be in love
I'm no romantic girl
I'm no romantic girl"

this is a poem by my friend sally from the workshop when i read it i felt as if she worte it for me =D really... it's like saying everything i wanted to's really a dear poem for me =)
thank you sally =D u rux gurl keep it up u r one gr8 poet and i love working with ya :)

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

weeeeeeeeey i got my own blog :D thnx to my nanush ;) rabena ye7'aleki leya we le eman we noha wel 2oma el 3arbia be 7alha.....
Wht am i gonna rit in here???