Wednesday, November 29, 2006

sometimes i ask my self...
why r school and colgs r here??
why do they make us learn?
it's not as it seems to at all...coz even education...it's one of our bigest problems here...
and the worst thing is...the we already know this.
can't we have just one thing prefectly good? coz it might be the soulition which gonna solve many things after it.
we r gonna finnish our lectuers on 25/12....start exams on 8/1 or maybe 6/1....and we have our exams day after day....
For God's sake! how is this fair!!??? i don't think tht the person who decided this a normal human being....
since the colg started and it took all of my time... i rarly go out with my friends or even best friend, i rarely sit with my family, i come home at 6 and 8 pms , sometimes i stay awake and don't sleep till colg time, my day always start at 9 am in the morning, i'm tired and tired everyday...have loads of things 2 do everyday...even at the holiday i usually go to colg or the library to do some work...
i love my colg...and adore wht i'm doing and learning and really i feel this yr is one of my best coz i feel i'm REALLY learning something...but ppl....plz mercy......plzzzzzzzz.
for those who r reading this....plz wish me luck, and plz pray for me...
thnx =)

Sunday, November 19, 2006

two very different people
too scared to get along
till two hearts beat together
underneath one sun
one very special moment
can turn a destiny
and what some would say
could never change
has changed for you and me
'cause it's all, it's all in the way you look through your eyes
and when all is said and done
all of the fear and all of the lies arenot hard to overcome
it's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong
we were two (we were two)
now we are one
we are two very different people
so much to overcome
so why care for one another
when there's so much to be done
cause sometimes it’s necessary just look how far we’ve come
you could say my friend that
it’s the end
or a new tale has begun
'cause it's all, it's all in the way youl ook through your eyes
and when all is said and done
all of the fear and all of the lies arenot hard to overcome
it's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong
we were two (we were two)
now we are one
one moment in time
is all the time we need
just to make a difference
to make it better for you and for me
it you just believeoh yeah
just open your eyes'cause it's all, it's all in the way you
look through your eyes
and when all is said and done
all of the fear and all of the lies arenot hard to overcome
it's all in the way you look at it
that makes you strong
we were two (we were two)now we are one
oh yeah, oh yeah
we were two
now we are one

" i love this song...and it's how i feel for today, don't know y?"

Friday, November 10, 2006

i can't leave my hair tall...never ever...it's against the rules lol my rules.
so i had to go to the hairdresser ASAP!
when i pointed with my finger to show her the high i want ( i guess i pointed wrong or she saw it wrong).... she cut it shorter than i wanted =D so it's..... tooo short now.
but it looks really cool, i look completely diff. it the st time to cut it tht short lol.
well...it looks like meg rayan's in french kiss movie lol, yes it's THT short!
atleast i wont wear any hair clips or anything like tht, just maybe 2 little tic tocs =)
i'll get used to it soon =D
shahinaz will kill me when she sees me =D (rabena yostor)
*taking a deep breathe* now i feel better...
as i always say...i usually cut my hair when i'm in a bad mood...my new look makes me feel i'm a new person...
short hair ROCKS!
maybe it's true....as i said...my ruleZ lol.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

i feel i'm a stranger here, am i a human? some times i doubt in tht
nothing is appreciated in this life...not love...not care....almost nothing
i can't trust love....don't wanna feel this word anymore
i can't feel it....
never thought tht love would break me like tht one day...just wish i can blow up , lose my memory or just shoot my self!
oh God plz help me
ur the only one i trust
i hate to be weak
plz plz plz get me out of here

(yeah y would ever someone care to read my....... )

it's mine and islam's cute candy birthday, wish u the best bd ever my lovely candy
and i hope u'd b happy for ever ya rab
me and u and islam togther isA we sherbeny fel seka looooooooool
love u hunny bunny (muwhaaa to u)

Tuesday, November 07, 2006



And i miss u like the desert miss the rain....

remember tht song?....

i really do miss u and when i need u i just remember the old days

it's been along time but it's out of our hands i know, and i guess ur starting to understand this too.

we both love eachothers and will always b togther no matter wht happened

come wht may....yes i say tht from my heart

i still miss u alot though i feel lonely, and i'll feel lonely even more when u r busy with ur new love, but i'm happy coz u r, seeing ur smile is like having everything lovely in the world

would u just promise me to take care of ur self? it's all wht i'm asking for .

can't tell u how happy i was to c ya last time....but needed 2 c u the the nxt coz felt like i wanted to fall in ur arms and weep so much u know why

i still need u so much i feel lost, confused , hesitated.

i know u might not read this i still didn't tell u tht i made a blog already (don't ask me y but i really don't know) maybe i don't wanna make u worried abt u

anyways as i said....plz take care plz