Saturday, June 30, 2012

my 25th birthday random thoughts

Salt and pepper.....
Today I got my 1st 25th birthday gift, its from one of the closest people to my heart its from a friend, a partner and role model to me. When Mrs.Rania took my hand and gave me the gift she looked at me and said: " i hope you use this" , she smiled. I didn't get it at the beginning and when I opened it I found a salt and pepper shaker, it laid in a small wooden box with engraved written words that says: " for someone special". I went back home thinking of mrs.rania's words, how can I possibly use salt and pepper shaker in something other than my kitchen ?!  

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Random Thoughts

it feels more like i'm standing by myself in the middle of the desert knowing no where to go, i looking out for the hand tht was reaching for  me before but it seems tht it lost the way to me. i keep waiting and waiting... and as a the silence fills the place my mind is thinking of tht song i heard once while i was driving...and i couldn't think abt anything else except...peter pan...he believed he can fly...and he did 
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope and glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and I

Thursday, June 14, 2012


i love how songs talks about my life sometimes its more like they r saying my life story. today i just felt a bit of the song "Dreams" by cranberries its wrapping up the way i feel instead of trying to choose the best words, and that what i love best about the music tht feeling it gives when u r out of words or when u r not very good in expressing ur self...
also cranberries music really takes they r the reason why i loved bass... so enjoy the song.....and the words...

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams, it's never quite as it seems,
Never quite as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

I want more impossible to ignore,
Impossible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;
You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,
Is changing every day,
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
It's never quite as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

Monday, June 11, 2012

my beloved

its been years now and still i cry liked i've i lost u yesterday. i wish u were here i wish u could c me and what i've become u would have been proud of me =).
i miss u with of my heart and i can't forget ur face...ur olive eyes and white hair...i miss ur smile and ur prayers for me before i'm up to something..
i miss how u defended me whenever my parents shouted at me =)
i miss spending Fridays in ur house where u perfectly cooked all our favorite food and bring us those 2 big bags tht were full of toys and games.
i hate to remember that day u passed away peacefully but i wouldn't bear to see u in an ounce of pain i'm sure u r in a perfect place because u were a perfect woman and perfect mother and an amazing grandma.
i miss u with all of my heart =' ) i love u grandma