Monday, October 15, 2007




Well I couldn't tell you

why she felt that way,She felt it everyday.

And I couldn't help her,

I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, whats wrong now?

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs,

where she belongs.

She wants to go home,

but nobody's home.

That's where she lies,

broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go,

to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside,

find the reasons why.

You've been rejected,

and now you can't find what you left behind.

Be strong, be strong now.

Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs,

where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.

That's where she lies, broken inside.

With no place to go, no place to go,

to dry her eyes.

Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.

Her dreams she can't find.

She's losing her mind.

She's fallen behind.

She can't find her place.

She's losing her faith.

She's falling from grace.

She's all over the place!

nobody's home by: Avril lavigne






i prayed tht today i'd feel better..and when i was abt to recover , it changed my whole day..i felt worse...i felt crumbling..

the worst of all it made me tear again... i thought there were no more tears


but it staped me...so hard...right through the heart.

i have no where else to be...i feel the world is getting bigger and bigger


no place for me in it...no where to run and cry

maybe i just need to vanish ...hoping everyone would b happy tht way

i failed to be anything...

a friend..

a lover...

a sister...

an even a writer

just everything...

maybe i have to go away...or stay away is a better word.


i should stop bothering others...i should stop making them feel sad for me
i hate be "Nekadeya"


am i bad? is it my fault?


maybe i just can't be good in anything...

this aint me...
plz God help..

4 comments:

Banota said...

sweetie .. calm down .. u don't bother others .. I take you as my sister =D .. but you should be strong and take against everyone says "you r gnarled...u bother me" ...nothing deserve tears and cheer up we r in eid =D ..
and i wanna say something else i dore with ur poems keep it on :)
BEST WRITER ISA

الإنكشاري said...

sad song lyrics and a black picture and alot alot of negative thoughts...and although it is not my right to ask but i can't help but asking....why is that sadness?if u was the problem u can't judge yourself and if u have judged yourself that means u r not a problem. anyway 1st step to deal with sorrow and sadness and grief is to put your hands on the real reason for that sadness and disappointment.then ask your self a simple question ....did i did that myself or it is just the fate that put that obstacle in my way...and if u still feel bad u can simplify the meaning of life in a simple question....if i died or vanished or moved to mars....will any body miss me ...most propably your answer will be no....but r u sure for that?are u sure that all people and even pets of the world will not miss u at all not even for one second????!!!!i am telling u that at least i will miss u when hear nothing from u ...and i will say"oh .....do u remember when u commented on that post of the sad blogger...what happened to her" and only two answers will pup in my head....she is happy now and forgot every thing about that sad moment or she committed suicide before she read this comment...what bad me!!!i couldn't write anything interesting enough to make a reason for surviving happy....cheer up people change and so do u may be for the worse or the better but who knows that....

SunShine said...

banota:
thnx alot hunny =) ur words lefted me up bgad

enkeshary:
don't worry i wont committe suicde lol =) lesa elhumdolelah be 3a2ly..
anyways i really appreciate ur words...u don't even know me but ur trying to make me feel better..and tht made me feel gr8 bgad..
i know tht many ppl will miss...but i'm not sure if i matter to anyone...i know my post was so deppressing and disappointing but i just wrote it when i felt all of this..tht's y it comes out so true for the heart
i know i shouldn;t feel so , i should not be tht negative...i am a postive person aslan...bas sometimes u feel so weak tht u cant fight anymore..
thnx alot again =)

الإنكشاري said...

we all have our depressing moments and when they pass away we ask our self how did i get to this disappointing level?usually i was saying i am the farest person from getting depressed but what i learned is no body away from it but only who can heal fast and live again who is normal :)
i hope u r feeling better and keep in touch ,it was a pleasure just cheering u up :) u r welcome