some ppl really thinks tht they live in america coz it's " cool". wht does tht word mean anyways...to be COOL guy or gurl.
saying words like...A** or F*** or WTF or kick A**...is something cool
wearing t.shirts with weeds on it or fingers or some of the previouse words....is something cool
dancing togther, arms around eachothers....c'mon don't be narrow minded...it's cool


but......



saying one of thoese words in arabic..... is to2 to2 to2 3eeeeeeeeeeeb enta 2alel el 2adab, how dare u say such a thing!

however....

i don't know how could someone ever say these stuff easily.... how come tht tiny little thingie called tongue say these stuff while it worshipe God in prayers (4 those who pray).
wht does tht have anything to do with being COOL , or i'm the one who has undertood this word wrongly.....
i know other ppl will say.....wenty malek hwa enty ely bet2oly........
but i feel so bad when ever i hear or read these things...sometimes makes me wanna cry....when i walk in the streets i just put my headphones on and hear music loud so i don't hear ppl saying these stuff....nowdays it is like saying hello....or how r u to someone....
but u know i respect the americans when they say these stuff....coz they r not showing off...and they r not just making another copy of nonsense...

as u can c it's 5 am in the morning....so don't ask me wht wakes me up and made me write this post coz i have no clue....

some one wise said " it's not a broken heart tht kills....but broken pride". i believe he's right , coz u can always fix ur heart with loving someone else...but wht would u do when someone break ur pride...? , tht's hard isn't it. when someone just walk away and say..." sorry ur not good enough for me.." wht the hell is tht ! , i don't know wht r ppl looking for.... money? fame?? flashy tittles , i mean do gurls have to be Paris Hilton and guys have to be Tom Cruse to be the perfect match for our kids ( the so called man and the so called lady).
oh plz...never heard of humilation b4?
i don't know when r u gonna wake up and c tht we r all human...and actually God wont judge u with how much money u got or if ur graduated from Colombia uni. or wht so ever....
life can be more simple than tht...if don't keep these stupid complications in it.
oh plz sometimes i feel i wanna scream in everyone...actually i thought tht these kinds of ppl were all gone since the 70's lol, but aparently some r still alive lol.
all i can say is...enjoy ur fancy life...

Exams r done and all i can say is..rabena yostor , so lets see wht i can do in the holiday to keep my self busy as much as i could. keepin busy keeps me away of negative thinking and thinking abt stupid stuff , feelings era ends for me....and open a new practicle world.
ok...so i'll go to tht workshop with one of my prof. from colg , we r gonna make a play with the marionette dolls i guess...tht will be totaly exhausting but gr8 coz i don't think i'll have time to sleep lool will be working alot really....
plus we r suppose to move this holiday too , so i'll b busy with tht too.
ofcourse my writing things tht will take plenty of time too...
then the all new semster and i'll die in colg one more time.
uhhhh....
it's a beautifull life.

I was studying with my friend mona today ( we were suppose to be studying but we kept talking more lol) and we came out with a theory hehe:

1- When a guy says" my mom...." : he's a sissy boy or in another word * beta3 mamto awi*

2-when a guy says" give it a try....." : don't listen to tht =D or in a better way NEVER.

3- when a guy says" i want to be honest with u..." : sorry but don't believe him

4- when a guy birthday is in the same month of urs: balash a7san =D


well, this theory was made after long laughing and too much of pepsi cans =D , but we some how knew it's true maybe with not all of guys...but plenty numbers of them =D

Dear Mohamed:

tht's really funny i don't know why i'm riting u a letter in my blog =D loool , just thought tht u'd be reading it anyway , coz i'm not sure tht u check ur emails.
so all i wanted to say is WHRE R U? u disappeared =D.
ok, i hope ur fine and everything....missed ur comments over here =) *ur the only one who comments aslan loool* really thank u for tht =).
well , hope everything is ok coz i'm a bit worried actually.
waiting for ur appearance soon
hope u did well in exams
t.c

ur: Shams

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn, don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything

And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to.
do you have to
do you have to let it linger

And I'm in so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger

You know I'm such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
do you have to let it linger


*nothing big just cranberries r my best ;) *

i've been feelin' down , crying everyday with no reason . somethings confuses me mind long time ago , i went to shahinaz (oh i wanted to c her so much, damn! i feel lonely without her).
i like it when i throw my self in her shoulders and cry deeply from my heart , i can feel her hearts beats talking to me saying :" it's ok, i'm over here..just beside you."
she made me feel much better , as she told me the words i always wanted to hear , the truth tht i was dying to know , althought it kills me more from the inside but better than to live in a fake fairy tale.
now i should be in the recovery stage , gathering my self up again , letting all the old days go as if they never happened.
i'm just glad of how i felt today.
and i thank the ppl who loves me for who am i , the ppl who loved me without flashy titles or a million dollars in the bank. most of all i'm happy with my self coz i'm atleast a human being and tht is a feelings tht some other creatures doesn't know the value of.
finally i'd thank God milllion times for being there with me , guiding me to the right direction no matter wht his poor humans says abt me just damn them !.
i'll try to start a fresh new start as the new yr does

Happy 2007

Once upon a winter

there was a time where the sun and earth met, in a cold march day it was raining....

earth was nearly dead but sun saved him and warmed him up with her rays.

he woke up on her smile and they both walked btween the stars.... they never stoped talking abt their dreams ,their hopes and their sorrows.

from this point the both knew tht they should rejoin and unite themselves togthere , but they both were confused she is a sun and he is earth it's hard 4 a 2 different worlds to be togther there will be many things facing them r they ready enf for them?.

earth calmed her down and kissed away her worries and pain, sun didn't want to believe him...but the look in his eyes made her feel safe.

they both 4got their worries and their old pain disolve away...both completed one another...she with her love rays and he with his warm care... she forgot she was sun and he forgot he was earth as if they were a one new creature. they walked away from their world and build their own one fantasy one.

after sometime, both lost directions ,confusion and worries came back , earth realized tht he IS earth and she is sun , he tried to tell sun but she's the one who was trying to comfort him this time he walked btw the stars and clouds he kept thinking and thinking , till he took a decision by him self without sharing it with sun and told her tht he'll be bk to his world without saying anyother word and left her with a question mark...

he walked away , away from her till the nxt winter came and another more 2, and the memory of sun vanished..

earth moved on in the world of real passing by stars and planets he became more light and full of life and shined brightly btw the others.

he never knew tht sun was all over around him giving him all the light and warm he needs and pouring some rain from her tears , he never knew tht the rainbow was becoz of her (after he left her she turned into red and lost her rays but the space saved her and the rainbow was due to her blood and tears )

tht was the end of two different worlds who can never be united except in fantasy , the sun can never touch the earth....