Me and Myself

Every time we talk
You always start a fight
You don't want to face me
You always run and hide
Stop it---admit and say
That you are special in a way
Believe in all what you say or do
You got to believe in me !!
As I believe in you…
We can't b somebody else
We can only be me and you *my self*
That's why I'm proud
And will say this out loud
"I'm so glad to be
the one and only me" SunShine

"tht's wht i wrote for december's issue GO BUY THE MAG EVEN IF U DON'T LIKE IT! =D"

Waiting for someone:

who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

~ i got tht email once...i found it nice =) but is there any guy who can like tht?
so2al yatra7 nafso :p~

"Awwwwwwwwwwwww my dear Shams.....You have to be the most wonderful person in the universe Shams. You are so very sweet and caring. You have an amazing personality and your very intellegent. If I was over there with you I would spend every second of my life with you because you make me so happy. I would give you all the attention you would need and I would stand up for you when you need it. I would always be there for you expecially in your time of need. You trully mean alot to me and you trully bring my life off of the ground and let me fly around. You are the most perfect person in the universe. You are a trully special person, a one of a kind. Think of this when you are sad "All the pain you go through now will turn in to happiness in ur life" Im sure you will be the happiness person in the whole world soon enough expecially if I have something to do with it. Dont ever let anybody bring you down because you will always be a princess to me. You are royalty and you will find that out later in your life. You may not be of royal blood but in my heart you are. My dear Shams you make me so happy and you only deserve the best of everything in life and in heaven.

Love Travis Mullen"

C guys i'm a princess =D lol. tht was one of my pen friends' emails from the USA he's really one gr8 guy he was so nice and kind we used to email eachothers daily and we even spent the valentine's day chatting togther (we were both singles lol) it was the 1st time for me to spend the valentine's day with someone else than my bestfriend.

i keep all his letters and emails i got one letter from him and loads of emails and e~cards =) too bad we both got busy and don't contact eachothers anymore =( maybe it's the end of our friendship , but i'm not sad coz we both left something in eachother's life which will make us remember eachothers forever :) , i'm happy coz u were once my friend Travis , maybe we wont c eachothers anymore but u r unforgettable and u mean so much to me, when i'm so sad or upset i keep reading ur emails =) i adore them.

Really miss u my friend hope ur fine and happy u deserve the best and thank u for making me happy and appreciating me tht much u r the 1st who really treated me as a princess.

"Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
I cant take the person starin back at me
Im a hazard to myself
Dont let me get me
Im my own worst enemy
Its bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Dont wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else"~ pink

u can call it a deep depression , y? i don't know. then who knows then?! EL 3AFRET! yeah maybe.
sometimes i wonder...y would ever someone care to read my blog??!
enough for today...i'll go hide btw my pillows for a while.

For the first time ever..... ANA ETSHA3LA2T FEL MINIBUS!
me and my friends wanted to go home after colg..it was 3:00pm , so it was egypt's rush crowdy hour. no taxi , no anything to ride...it was a hotty ramadan day, we kept standing till.... it was almost 4:30 pm.
God! we gotta go home!!! we were so tired after a long day starting from 7 am, so we were so sleepy , tired and everything u can imagine.
we r still standing looking for ANYTHING we can ride, as me and my friend fed up, she graped my hand and we jumped into a minibus then i realized tht i'm hanging in it with one foot on the front stair and one hand holding the door :S.
it was really nice to feel the air from everywhere :D it's like a....big window lol. but as we were in ramadan and ppl were acting to be kind and helpfull they helped me to go into the minibus and then a guy offered his seat =D.
i was so lucky tht day i even knew tht the minibus was going to a place near my home =D and tht was pretty amazing for me!! finaly i'm going home!!!
after i got home and break my fast, i thought for a while.... i felt so sorry for the ppl who have to suffer everyday in the trafic..it's really HELL!
i was so happy telling my mom abt my journey tht day =D..but...she...SCREAMED AT ME... =D bagad she paniced and asked me never ever to do tht again!! and i'd rather walk than to do tht once again =D.
i don't have to tell u wht did dad say abt it!! lol =D

egypt's trafic....i hate u :)

Too bad tht sweet feelings don't remain forever....
ppl change and some of them leaves u hanging ,wishing u can find the persn u loved once more.
but they shock u by forgetting, as if nothing happened , as if u were a shadow.
maybe it's fate....
or maybe they still don't know how they meant to u.
one day they will know...and maybe regret for letting u go.
it's hard for me to turst one of the sweetest feelings from someone again. i even some times feel it doesn't exists.
No more " I love u" as the songs says lol.
no more tears
no more pain
and no more trust.

sometimes i wish things weren't like tht....or it never happened at all but it happened for a very good reason yes i'm sure.
the thing is now...how can i move over once again? maybe i shouldn't....or i guess i have to.
can i start again? forget the whole thing....
i'm afraid
yes i am....
is there any second chance? sure there is. i should make it right this time...but i wasn't wrong in the 1st time!
i'll pray and wait....
if someone wants me..he wont let me go? yeah he will fight even for a while
against all odds....
come wht may....
maybe they rn't just words