I'm so sad tht i missed a day....my school best friend's wedding...=(
it was really out of my hands and till now i'm still upset, i wish i was there catching such moment. anyways i hope she'd forgive me..
i wish u all the happiness in the world =) from my heart
and from my heart i'm saying tht i love u so much
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Flashbacks

i know it didn't ended so well btw us...but days and years made me realize tht it would take me more than tht to try to stop loving someone
we were kids..teenagers probably...we fought...we screamed..we laughted and cried.
we had bad and good days togther...both can't be forgotten
many times i open my little box and start reading our notes...everything we wrote for eachothers
school notes...
drawings....
secrets.....
cards.....

i know we r n't like b4 and no it's not coz of our silly fights,but life seems to be harder than it seems
we all change every now and then...but the best thing is that we share memories together...
and thts were i remember...

when we prayed the eid and friday togther

how happy were u when u 1st saw me with the veil

naming our crushes by mortalcomabt charachters

hanging out and riding *7antor at zamalek*

buying sweet vally high and exchanging them togther

listening to wht's now 98...eating pizza and chatting, all the 3 of us

fighing over who is going to site nxt to whom at the class

going to dream park

valentine....christmas

private lessons

crying on eachothers shoulders

Arkedia mall

LOL after big fights...*exchanging socks*

birthday gifts....*my 1st powerpuff girl*


there r alot to remember actually...alot tht make me smile and make me forget why we even cried...i dont really care much abt the past
roastry and cafeology *surprising party*
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GOD! i hoped i'd join u in ur moment
and again from my heart i'm saying...i love u my friend =)

wish u can read this

How far can the word "SORRY" heal a pain???
so many questions i wanna ask...

where the hell r u??!!!!! don't u know how much u r really missed????everybody around is searching out for u, u vanished all of a sudden ! can u tell me tht ur fine plz?? send me anything...any sign...
i pray the day i can c u in...c u happy..i need to give u some stuff...and maybe then u can vanish the way u want
i hope u could feel how much u REALLY mean to me
waiting to c u

Been away for sometimes....was ill..then my grandpa passed away...it was all a matter of time.In a second i was talking to him, the other one he was gone...it's hard to c someone dead infornt of ur eyes especially when they r close to u....
i cried..
then my eyes got dry...
then i cried again...
then my eyes got dry...
then i cried...
then my eyes got dry at least...and i thought they would b dry forever...
honestly after my grandma passing away....i couldn't feel much pain like after her death...maybe coz her death was the most effective thing tht changed our life balance...and ever since it...it made a huge change..
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when it comes to people, it was pretty surprising coz not everyone as i expected was really there, esp. those who i wished to be there...
there is no reason to feel sad abt it anymore, we can't beg for feelings and mostly people appeares in hard times...if not with sympathy...with appreciating and respecting the way u feel.

i just feel sick from some ppl...

better not to start talking abt it...I'M SO DAMN SENSTIVE!