i was in the taxi when i heard a song by tamer hosni tht says...

محدش فاهم حاجه...محدش حاسس بيه
واحد اتنين تلاته يا عين والباقى مش سائل فيه

i can't remember the words but the song was so deppressing full of sadness and pissmistic , negative thoughts !
why on earth would someone RIT , SING OR COMPOSE SUCH SONG, seriosly it made me hate my self , hate ppl and even wish to DIE... omG!! it is TERRIBLE.
all the song he keeps saying...no one loves me .... no one cares...no one listen....i have no friends bla bla bla...what a pathetic , sick person!...even if some ppl feel like tht , why would he express it and make them feel even worse...
bad bad BAD song...never listen to it

ppl i'm a human too...plz don't push me so much..i need a break seriosly!
u don't know tht i brust into tears when u keep loading me that way!! and u'r not helping at all and then u'r complaining...and even blam me!!!!!

OMG! can't someone shoot me?!!

is it important how i feel?? why i don't care abt my feelings tht much like some ppl do? why do i care abt how others gonna feel?...y do i would let myself hurt just to make others feel better?? eventhough it would make me feel terrible or bad....why? WHY?
and why can't i stop doing tht???!!!! , maybe i love me that way....

for the 1st time i don't feel sad coz i'm getting old....infact when i went to the new t.s workshop...i felt i was like observing others...teenagers...mostly younger than me... i saw tht gurl...cute...short...i kept like watching her...her hopes and dreams... lol her hair...her clothes...evern her relation with her friends...bestfriends...her passion...her face...her smile...i felt i know her...and i kept staring at her so she probably think i'm stupid lol.
anyways... she just reminded me of me when i was her age....
tht was really nice...and i was happy dunno why...
phew...am not making any sense am i?

UR Thoughts + UR feelings = creating ur own future

still it's all as we dream...what we wish for...is what we get

i can´t sleep,
i just can´t breathe
when your shadow is all over me
baby don´t wanna be, a fool in your eyes
´cause what we had was built on lies
and when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say
i don´t wanna feel the way that i do
i just wanna be right here with you
i don´t wanna see see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
i miss you...
what would it take, for you to see
to make you understand that i´ll always believe
you and i,
can make it through
and i still know, i can´t get over you
´cause when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say
i don´t wanna feel the way that I do
i just wanna be right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart i just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby i miss you, i do...
´cause when our love always fades away
listen to me hear what I say
i don´t wanna feel the way that i do
i just wanna be right here with you
i don´t wanna see see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
i miss you, i miss you i do...
i don´t wanna feel the way that i do
i just wanna be right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby i miss you, i do...