so i'm starting my exams tomorrow isA...too close to graduating and i'm starting to accept tht i'll have a new life...i'm already preparing for it...only hopes tht it goes the way i want isA...so i need all the prayers...pray for me when u read this...
almost there...
almost reaching my star

part two....



yes my dear Injy was rit...it's the new rule...25pt for less than 25 kilos....50pt for more....and the driver said tht...he even took the paper from another driver to show it to us.
and tht wasn't just the problem...
tht man sitting in the front who has tht serious look on his face and dark sunglasses...the main leader of the revolution in the microbus...was actually going to medan lebanan not ramses...where the distance is less than 25k so he'd pay 25pt only...
the whole microbus kept arguing and cursing the driver...accusing him of rejecting their right...and he was saying tht it is his right...everything one was just talking abt HIS RIGHT...and there were i should end the story....
wht does actually MY RIGHT means?

i don't know why i don't have any political views....i never read anything about politics...i even don't know wht the word mean....
l8ly the raising of the prices has been causing a big mess all over...
today at the microbus...the driver wanted 250...and some of the passengers said it's on 225...i didn't really cared tht much it was only 25pt anyways, so i was silent all the way and didn't complain...just watched the battle in peace...

~end of part one~

i know it's been a while...but i've been so sick...i stayed at home for like 3 or 4 days...
and as i got a little better and went out to my friend in " 7adaye2 el ahram" , as usual we finish up a bit late so i had to go home at aout 10 pm or something as i recall..however it's only max 30 min btw me and her and i went down at 8 pm...
i stood alot to ride something...abt an hour...and then came a bus.. i was like "el hamdolelah finally going home"......few mint later when we were between "el 7adaye2" and " 6 october" , the bus stopped and the driver said:
" ma3lesh ya gama3a hanzelko hena 3ashn sa7eb el 3rbia 3aweza wel taba3 hyrakebko"
actually he was lying..he just want to turn bk so he can go bk and have more passengers...coz there was only 7 or 8 guys...plus me the only gurl...
we went down...and the driver flew with the bus to the other side and left us with his assist, in the middle of nowhere...there was no a sign for anything....just the desert....
" etfadalo nos el 2ogra ya bahawat 3ashn e7na mesta3glen" he said.
well the 7 men argued with him abt the money...he wanted to give each nos geneh while they wanted geneh...*actually he should have paid the whole 125 pt coz he didn't drive us were we should have gone*
all of this happening and i was starring at them....i didn't say a word...till he came to give me the money...

i closed my eyes for a second....

and i let out a fire of words!...

i kep screaming and shouting...*i don't think i ever shouted like tht b4*

i was like " HOW R WE SUPPOSE TO GO HOME NOW...DON'T U REALISE WHERE THE HELL UR LEAVING US!".

he tried to avoid me but i went back again" YA BANE2DAM ANA BAKLEMK...ENTA MA3ANDKSH E5WAT BANAT...."

and his still want to give me the 50 pt.

and yes the men were standing still in there place watching us =)

i screamed and screamed untill i lost my breathe....

and he simply took the money and ran....

i couldn't really believe wht happened....i kept cursing and insulting then said "7asby Allah wa ne3ma el wakel"

it was the 1st time tht i feel humiliated like tht...i was just like omG...how could i be left like tht...

the men kindly calmed me down...it was funny when one of them said " dah 5ad el nos gehneh" as if it was the problem...

they kindly stopped the 1st microbus on the way too...and the was only one seat so they let me in....

and as i sat i start crying...couldn't hold my self from crying my tears kept falling like rains till i reached home...i tried to stop crying so ppl wont keep looking at me but i couldn't...

it's really a feeling i never had b4.....weak....lost...lonely and afraid...

humiliated....yes...it's hard to tell how bad it is....

i'm not writing this as me shams...i'm writing it as a girl

i'm a girl for God's sake!...

i know worse could have happened but thank God for everything...i'm blissed...

rabena yehdey el game3 ya rab...

i actually noticed something tht's really funny
as i kept saying tht it's been a while since i wrote in my blog...well i guess i know the reason why.
i write most of my posts while i'm sad angry or frustrated...l8ly i've been very happy really so so happy...and i'm not so good in describing my feelings i mean the good ones...so when i'm reallly happy i feel i'm so out of words...my feelings r indescribable
now i'm a bit upset with no reason...crying with no reason...maybe it's the stress and i miss my dogs badly...really i miss them...