it's a fixed feelings, feeling happy , confused , curious , excited and a bit worried from the future but not afraid.
i feel as if life is just begining or maybe it's a new phase.
wooow yrs r passing so so fast
i don't know it's been a big while since i felt like writing =(

Since I’ve been hearing the word “MARRIAGE” a lot lately , I decided that getting me wont be so easy =) yes I’m a girl and I’m precious at least for my family and friends .
It’s weird how’s almost everyone is telling me abt getting married , soulmates having kids and so on…everyone wants me to get married =D everyone brings to me a 3arees every now and then as if I’m taking a large space of their house !!!
Give me a break ppl I’m still not ready and still can’t find my mr. anonymous. I still need to focus on my 2nd term =D, then on my career..yes.. I need to be as ready as possible and feel tht I’m a grown up shewaya , at least have the ability to have my own source of living…
Anyways , as I said I wont let getting me be so easy, Mr anonymous should meet some important people before meeting my parents and these ppl r…

- my sisters and their husbands
- my best friends shahinaz and ahmed
- my godmother mero and my young sis injy
- my band brothers * islam , seif , Mohamed and shazly*
- my two cousins heba and manar
- my best friend ehab

coz these ppl r a part of my family and their opinion means a lot to me and I’m sure if anyone tried to break my heart…. =D hwa el 5asran ba2a. *kidding*

Then finally he can meet my parents =D.

About weddings…umm I didn’t really plane for it but I guess I’d prefer an Islamic wedding so I can take off the veil tht day =D * neyety we7sha shewaya bas it’s my wedding ba2a!!*
If not..then it’s gonne be very very veeeeeeeeeeeeery simple wedding with a violen zafa not all the noise with the drums , horses and so *I hate the very loud noise and probably wont be able to stand for like 10 hours !!!! high heals KILLS ME*
As for the honeymoon ummm I’m thinking to go for a 3omra or something???...ya3ni I care abt the honeymoon more than the wedding, maybe we’d go somewhere like Hawaii or Thailand it still can be sharm el she5 or somewhere in Egypt , Alexandria is cool too…or we can stick in a hotel we 5alas =D…ya3ni I only want it to be perfect..
Umm wht else…. I guess it’s all…

Allah yekon fe 3ono ely hydabes feya ba2a =D

=) wish me luck

i'm sitting in the dark and don't ask me how am i writing this , my left shoulder hurts like hell and my back is on fire :s yeah i'm not feeling so well...
i need more confident in my self the worst thing is me is my low self esteem...
and here is wht i'm listening:

I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I...
I'm with youI'm with you
im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I...
I'm with youI'm with youoh

why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I...
I'm with youI'm with you
Take me by the hand take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are but I...
I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand take me somewhere new I dont know who you are but I...
I'm with you
I'm with you

it's gr8 how some ppl still makes me hold on...whenever i'm tht close to shoot myself i find someone to grap my hands and left me up...it's gr8 to feel tht there r ppl who care abt u...feeling care is AWESOME.
so...i'd like to thank who saved the day =)...i wish u'd be there for me 4ever

I don’t know why I suddenly feel upset =( I just went to my bed and slept like a baby…I feel I’m a pathetic person am i?
I’m too small in the world that I feel it’s not really where I belong.
Lost in the nowhere and no other place to go. Don’t I belong somewhere? I wish I can delete all these negativity thought but u guess they have to appear every now and then. One of those break downs.
Till when I’ll be running away as fast as I can?
Till when I’ll be hiding?
And till when I’ll be hunted by my fears?
I feel so all alone

I never wanted the days to pass fast like now, I can’t sleep…I can’t wait to go and lie in bed with my 1st yawning. And I can’t wait till the nxt day comes and so on…
Can’t stop thinking..
I’m afraid to be let myself be happy…sometimes good signs really freak me out. When everything begins to be almost perfect…
I hope that history wouldn’t repeat it self once more…I hope I don’t fall apart again.
Does sometimes it’s no the right time? Or is it just the perfect time for it?
Have a chance…risk…trust??
A part of me wants it but the part doesn’t feel comfortable yet. I’m torn btw both.
Auffffff I can’t study!!! I wanna focus
P.s; I can hear it raining now which is so gr8. Too bad I can’t get out coz no one’s home now. Lol weird I caught a cold though

Today as i was on my way to my friend as usual *where me and my other friends meet , and go together to colg*
anyways i was walking fast coz i was a bit l8 for them..then i found someone from behind calling me...

"anesa...anesa...", i turn back and answered.
"yes".
he said "momkin as2alek so2al".
i was puzzled for a while.."ok"
he asked" hwa 7adretk mortabeta".
i didn't realize the question 1st so i answered fast" no y".
then after a sec i was puzzled...then he answered bk "i just wanted to know".
my face turned into red not from shyness bas from being angry !!!
i then found myself running to my friend's house..i looked bk and he was behind :S...i went up as fast as i can....
i don't know...heya el nas etganenet?...wala i was so attractive that he wanted to propose!!!omG, how am i gonna be attractive while i'm going to an exam , having papers in my hand...holding my bag with another...wearing my baggy and blue jeans jacket...NO WAY I AM THT ATTRACTIVE.
c'mon!!! even if it was true....WHT THE HELL HE WAS THINKING !!!
i can't believe any one who can get married this way!!!

A psychic poem by a mad girl

Nuts…but do you know
I’m crazy about you
I’m nuts…I know
I even made my hair blue

Sniff…sniff my nose is cold
Sniff…sniff I can’t hold

You made me go crazy
You idiot! You lazy
You just couldn’t say a word
That would simply change my world

Have you seen what you’ve done to me?
Now I’m nuts…are you happy?

Sip…sip I’m drinking some tea
Sip…sip I’m too blind…I can’t see

I thought you liked me
I saw it through the eye
But you never said it
Can’t believe it was a lie

Have you seen what you’ve done to me?
Now I’m nuts…are you happy?

Click…click what’s that I press?
Click...Click...What’s all that stress?

Why the hell don’t you leave me alone?
Why the hell your heart is like a stone?

I’m out of my mind….
Do you know why?
Because I drew fake wings
And wanted to fly

But you let me fall down that I broke my hand
That’s when people said that I gone mad

Have you seen what’ve done to me?
Now I’m nuts…are you happy?


By: Sunshine

i'm suppose to be studying for my exams, instead i found myself riting poems to complete my 1st poetry book...still one place left for a final one...

anyways this poem is part 2 of a poem i wrote with the name "how can i forget" tht i wrote 3 yrs ago...i rot this poem for the same person..well...i'll leave u with the poem now

A recovery stage

I thought I’d never let you go
But life made me do

As you forgot me long ago
I only begun stop thinking of you

It’s too hard to let go of the past
Too hard to admit it won’t last

What’s harder…
Knowing that you were too weak
Too weak to fight for what you seek

Didn’t I worth it?
Or was it too hard?
But it seemed easy to leave me with a broken heart

No more tears to cry
No more
Because my eyes got dry

Time seemed to stop since we were apart
Don’t I deserve like you a new start?

I’m tired of feeling how pain tasted
Regret about the time I wasted

It’s already been too long
It took me years to know I was wrong

As for the wound you marked
It will still be there
Only buried inside my heart

I’m not the first and won’t be last
Who will be recovered from her past



Sunshine

Life is like a teacher u never stop learning from it, i've been looking at my life l8ly and i kinda lol abt it...loads of things happend and many are coming up.

why am i riting this? don't ask

today the sky was so blue...it was the best blue colour i've even seen in my life...so blue like sea, i couldn't stop staring at the cloudes either...

6 october is really a gr8 place for meditation...every single day. it makes me feel i wanna hug the space..

few hours l8er...it was raining...i stood in the rain, never felt the cold, i felt i was washing my self..from the past maybe or might be from the present.

Spiritualty...

i've always loved this word...

also Meditation

Sentimental

sensation

Bittersweet

Chaos *i don't know why*

I am Human...i noticed tht recently...i breathe...i feel..wait a sec. wht did i say..i feel?..FEEL, wht does feel mean? feeling?

how do we feel? does everyone FEEL?

does everyone feel pain , love , care or even hate? like when u hit someone..kiss someone or even hug...isn't tht sweet?...wht does sweet means? how does it taste in our minds or hearts...

wht am i saying?

Dear All:

i'm sry i've been away for along time , but i'm so busy n'exhausted =( colg is taking all of my time , i can hardly sleep or eat...still didn't start studying for the final exams...which is going to be on 30th dec. and i'll be done on 15th jan isA.

so happy Eid everyone and happy new yr in advance =)..i've missed my blog and everyone around..sry tht i'm not here but i promise tht i'll be there soon isA and check wht i missed.

I wish i was a butterfly:

rabena ye3enk sweetie and really no need to apologize el mohem tht u feel better soon isA...we isA we'll have a chance to talk soon...rabena ma3aki ana bad3elk bgad =).

i miss everything even myself...all i need is ur prayers for now plz

thnx everyone

When I say that I feel I’m going to die young, I really mean and feel so =( . I’m not saying this to make you feel upset, but I have this feeling strongly in me and really I don’t know why I keep feeling so.
Sometimes I really feel I’m dying… yesterday was one of those sometimes…
I felt I was dying..i couldn’t take my breathe and my heart was beating very fast…I kept saying el shehada and some do3aa…I couldn’t sleep, I was so afraid…I was I kept seeing myself dead…I saw a paper with my name on it…”توفيت الى رحمة الله الطالبه “شمس أحمد this paper was hanging in my colg.
I wondered how my friends will know abt it…esp those who been a while since we talked…I thought abt my best friend…when can she know…after few weeks? Month? It wont be more than tht…
I’m still so afraid…afraid to sleep but never wake up. I wanted to wake my mum up and ask her to sleep beside me…but I couldn’t…and I was really going to wake up and tell my parents that I’m going to die..because I really felt I was going to.
All of this time I was sitting on bed trying to sleep…I succeeded in sleeping…but after less than an hour I woke up again and got the same feeling…
My heart was beating so fast that I felt it’s time..it’s going to stop a minute or another.
I was upset because I didn’t want to die this way…and I was thinking about everything I wanted to do in life.
After a long straggle I finally fell asleep…and woke up to colg.
I couldn’t stop thinking abt death..and wasn’t really sure…what am I supposed to do?
I asked my friend…
“do we feel that we are going to die before dying?”
“yes”
“ do u know someone who felt so wala eh?”
“yes…me”
“c’mon maybe it’s only stress we r all loaded this year”
“I don’t know…but I really feel it so much”
“ok…stop it now plz coz I don’t know how to react in such situations..cheer up keda we ed3ey”
“I do, I just feel weird”.

She changed the subject…

I still get tht feeling at night…sometimes at day… and I found a friend of mine giving me a book to read…

Sub7an Allah…it was abt death maybe it was just a coincidence…

I’m sorry…this might be a very disappointing post.. is might be my last post..? I don’t know…

I can feel tht there is a msg for me…or it can be only colg stress…who knows…

I need your prayers

I feel strange l8ly , for the 1st time I don’t think how many yrs r left till I graduate , now I’m only months away…
For the 1st time I feel tht I’m OLD..not too old..but I never noticed my age b4, I’ve always felt tht I’m a still a child…a teenage…I don’t know how to explain tht but I’ve looked at myself in the mirror…and I felt I’m a young lady…I have responsibilities.
I have a life and a future to start.
I don’t know why I got this feeling now…maybe coz I was so confused abt wht to make after graduating..i have many choices and I don’t know wht to do..and how to start.
I feel I want to make many things in the same time…
I want to make my masters
I want to keep up with the band
I want to work as an air hostess and in the same time write in a magazine
I want to learn continue my German course and take a Spanish one too.
I want to continue my Quran lessons.
I want to make an e-mag
I want to volunteer in 57357 hospital
I want to join culture wheel and make a membership
I want to join some yoga’s lessons
I want to study metaphysics online

And many many things tht rn’t on my mind now

Life is passing by so quickly , I’m afraid to die before leaving a sign , and I really hope I’d leave one…

p.s:

dear i wish i was a butterfly

thnx alot dear for ur concern , =) u made my day bgad, i'm so exhausted and have lots of things to do everyday...barly find time to sleep =(..yeah colg is killing me tht's y i am away, and sadly it's not just the grad project...i feel i'm committing suicide this yr =D...

ed3ely plz hunny

thnx alot =)

i've been facing weird situations on my way home l8ly.. :S
i never thought tht there still something in some ppl called N-I-C-E or S-W-E-E-T....
i was "sayma"on a colg day and going home after "el- ma3'reb"prayer as usual..."3adi 3adi"
when "el 2athan"was starting i 4got to buy anything to break my seyam with...i searched in my bag for anything but i all i found was...like always...gum.
then i heard the guy siting behind me calling...

Miss...miss...etfadly

i turned and found him offering me a chocolate patee..i was surprised... and didn't get it at 1st..

enty sayma we lesa el tare2 tawel..he said smiling...

i was still surprisd...how did he knew tht i'm sayma :S?...

i was puzzled for a while then i said, merci gazak allah 5yran...and smiled bl =)

he kept offering it again for a while... and i kept thanking him all over again..

i'm still surprised how did he know tht i'm sayma !!
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i was bk from my friend's house..standing in "medan lelt el qadr"waiting for a nice cute tok-tok to drive me home... * there r no much taxies in 6 october yet*
so...i was standing...then i heard someone from behind..

hwa 7adretek 3awza tero7y feen?

i was :s 1st then i answered...el 7ay el estesmary....

he: 3and masaken el shabab? his acsent seemed not egyptian...

me: umm..yes??

he: tayeb ana saken henak law te7by awsalek fe tare2y...

me: :S la2 merci awi gazak Allah 5yran...

he: gazana wa 2eyakom...bas law te7by awslek 3ashn mato2fesh keda...

me: la la merci ana harkb 3ala tool isA.

he: =) ok..ber7tek..

after abt 5 min. i didn't notice he was still standing...
then he goes again...

modmazel.....

me: *awel mara 7ad yeklmny be zo2 awi keda fa tab3an tana7t*...yes...

him: belah 3alek mynfa3sh to2fy lewa7ed keda...yaret te2baly awsalek..mat5fesh walahi!...

me: rabena ye5alek merci keter bgad bas ana isA hrkab 3ala tool....

him: asly mesh 3awez asebk keda...

me: merci awi rabena ye5alek...ana met3aweda ..

him: *disappointed* tayeb...mesh 3wza ay 7aga?

me: gazak allah 5yran

him: gazana wa 2eyakom...

*btw he looked so decent awi*

we tab3an elhumdolelah eny ana 3oyony mesh daba7a we sha3ry mesh asfar we byter fel hawa , fa i'm sure it wasn't harrasment...in fact i was coming bk from colg wearing my janesport back bag so i wasn't in my best looks either... lol

anyways i'm really surprised...feeh keda fel denia?...
sub7an Allah....i thought these kinds of guys died in the war as everyone says...lol...

it's also nice to feel tht stranger can care abt u more than ppl u know...in a way u still matter for someone even if u don't know...

weird... =)

i'd like to thank i wish i was a butterfly for tagging me =)..thnx alot sweetie i was really glad

كنت طالب شاطر في المدرسة؟

بصراحه مش اوى مش لدرجه التفوق بس كنت بذاكر يعنى و بجيب مجاميع حلوة بس مش داحيحه يعنى لانى بكره الحفظ و المشكله ان نظام التعليم عندنا بيمشى بالحفظ بس, هوه انا فى تانيه ثانوى جبت مجموع مهبب بس كان بسبب الصحوبيه بعيدن حولت فى تالته ادبى و ذكرت جامد مع انى بكره التاريخ...و الحمد لله زدت حاوالى 10 % و ده رفعلى المجموع اوى و بصراحه انا حاسين انى فخوره بنفسى جدا لا ن عادتا الواحد بيقل فى تالته فى حسيت انى بذلت مجهود و كسرت قاعده

ايه كانت أحب مادة ليك في المدرسة و الكلية؟

الاحياء و انا علم علوم و الفلسفه و انا ادبى

اما فى الكليه فهما كتير شويه:

اولا: كل مواد المسرح زى الديكور و الاضاءة,نقد مسرحى, تحليل مسرحى, فن الكتابة المسرحية

ثانيا:مواد الصحافه و التليفزيون و التتصوير

ثالثا: علم النفس

أكره مادة ليك في المدرسة و الكلية؟

الرياضه انا كنت حماره فيها و بمجرد لما بشوف ارقام بهرش فى راسى :)

فى الكليه بكره كل ماده ليها علاقه بالتربيه

كنت عايز تطلع ايه و انت صغير؟

الاول دكتورة بيطريه

ثانيا مضيفه جويه

ثالثا عالمه فلك او كمياء

اخيرا صحفيه و كاتبه انشاء الله و لسه بفكر بردو فى المضيفه الجوية

أغرب حاجة اتمنيتها هي إني ابقى؟

سواقه تاكسى و مش عافه ليه؟ يمكن لانى بحب السواقه اوى

اسم مدونتك؟

my fantasy world =)

لماذا اخترته؟ و ما هي نيتك من اختياره؟

فى اغنيه اجنبيه بتقول:

i am the princess in there nothing wrong in my fantasy world

tht's it's called fantasy world and the site is vip-rincess which mean very important princess =D

i feel i'm a princess so i created my own world

هل فكرت في اغلاق مدونتك؟ و السبب

لا لانى كاتبه ذكريات حلوة اوى و البلوج بمثابة ارشيف و مذكره زى مذكراتى الى بكتبها على الورق

صورتك في المدونة... رمزيتها

انا كنت حاطه صورت بنت فى لعبه بحبها جدا و بتربطنى بيها علاقه جميله و خاصه بعدين شلتها و حطيت صورة بنت محجبه عجبتنى اوى بس مش اكتر

أحلى جملة قيلت لك في وصف مدونتك؟

بصراحه مفيش حاجه معينة

التعليقات بالنسبة لك. أهميتها

هوه فلاول كنت بكتب و مش بهتم اوى لكن مع اول تعليق كنت مبسوطه اوى و حبه ان الناس تقراء البلوج

ما أحلى بوست كتبته؟ ضع اللينك ثم اذكر لماذا

بدون غرور لقدر الله مش هقول ان كلهم حلوين لكن كل واحد ليه معزه خاصه عندى عشان كل حاجه كتبها فى ظروف معينه فانا بصراحه محتارة جدا و عشان كده مش هكتب حاجه

أحلى مدونة قرأتها

تنفيس لابو صلاح

منمن بنوته

انكشاريات

بورتراوى

نفسى اكون فراشه i wish i was a butterfly

حد قل أدبه في التعليق؟ عملت ايه؟

الحمد لله لا

إيه اللي هيحصل لايميلك لما تموت؟

هاهاها اكيد هيتقفل يعنى

اديت الباسورد لحد قبل كدة؟

ايوة

ايه كانت علاقتك بيه؟

هوه انتمتى عارفاها بس مش حافظها لانى ساعات بطلب منها تفتحلى اليميل لو عندى مشكله

اسمك؟

اول حاجه بتصحى... شمس

اسم الدلع المشهور بيه وسط أصحابك

أووش او سوشى

مجال دراستك؟

الاعلام التربوى

شخصيتك... نوعها ايه؟

انا بحس ان فيه و كل حاجه مش عارفه ازاى يعنى ساعات بكون برده اوى و ساعات بكون حساسه جدا و ساعات بحس انى لذيذه و ساعات بحث انى سخيفه بس حاجه اكيده الناس اجمعوا عليها و هى انى طيبة الحمد لله بس مش لدرجه الهبل

مودك ايه؟

عادتا بتأثر بالناس الى حوليا

بتعمل ايه في وقت فراغك؟

بكتب

بقرأ

بتفرج على فيلم

قاعد على اللاب توب

بعزف او بغنى

بخرج

الأكلة المفضلة؟

الشعريه الطويله noddles

البطاطس المحمرة

السفر بالنسبة لك؟

بحبه جدا و نفسى الف العالم

و بحب طريق السفر الطويل اوى

صفات أخدتها من بابا

الطيبه و احترام الجميع و الذوق و الكرم

صفات أخدتها من ماما

الكتمان و انى اكون اجتماعيه و الحنيه

أكتر 6 حاجات بتكرهها

السرقه : و دى ليها قصه طويله اوى صعب احكيها دلوقتى

الكدب

الغش

الصوت العالى و الزعيق

الاذلال المعنوى

الشتايم

أكتر 6 حاجات بتحبها

الجنون

العب و العرايس

افلام الكرتون

قيام الليل

الصور

الموسيقى

الشغل بالنسبة لك

هوه اساس وجودى على الارض سواء شغل شغل او شغلى كا أم

ايه الكمبيوتر و النت بالنسبة لك؟

واخد جزء كبير اوى من يومى و انا اتبسط اوى لما جبت اللاب توب لانى حسيت بخصوصيه فا بحبه اوى اوى اوى

تمرر التاج لمييييين؟

ابو صلاح

عبدالرحمن ابو بكر

أنكشارى

واحده متفزلكه

Colg wasn't like everyday...i missed my colg best friend and dear sister mona =(...she's sick so she couldn't come.

and really i felt so sad coz she wasn't around...i really felt i miss her alot

she always make me laugh out loud!, the funniest gurl i've ever met =D

i really hope she'd recover soon so she can come...MISS HER

i felt i wanna cry...most of ppl at colg r my frineds..

but i have only 2 who r so close to my heart...2 tht i hate to go to colg when they r not there.

i'll pray for her...

miss u dear =( tegy bel salama isA

You, me and the broken hearts

For all the hearts that been broken
For all the tears that been shed
For all the souls that been falling
For all the lies that been said

For all the dreams that faded away
For all the love that can never stay
For all the times we tried
For all the years we lived and smiled

For all the pain you caused to me
For all the passion inside of me
For all the wishes I wished for us
For all the people I no more trust

For all the scars in her and me
For everything you turned to be

It’s time to heal and change my life
It’s time to cut your picture with a knife

It’s time to leave all the past behind
It’s time to get off the dark, long night

It’s time for you , her and me
To move on
And forget the word “HE”



Sunshine (20)

The best time i usualy spend is with my life comapnion "Nano". yesterday was so weird for both of us we cried alot then we went mad and laughed like hell.

i can't deny tht we both have some misunderstanding btween eachothers but it's ok we are humans =D and i feel it's kinda boring if we had the same characters like mirror...

anyways

as i said, yesterday was weird...we were ending our misrable era and starting a new life...

facing our past and healing it with our love for eachothers...

and both of us were comfort by our man and brother Ahmed =)...

the 3 of us r so nuts =D we were friends since 8 yrs ago...we do all the crazy things togther, i feel as if we r a real family...sometimes i wish if i can spend the rest of my life living with them...loving eachothers and caring for eachothers.

althought yesterday wasn't exactly as i hoped at all...but maybe it's time to turn the page and start writing a new one...

tht wht i do for living...writing...but i still can't write in my book of life.

i hope this can be an end and a start.

Today was so weird! I met one of my very best and dear friends ever =).

I never thought I’d meet her coincidence in the CTA.
I was sitting in the front seat with my best friend on our way to Mahaad El awarm, when I saw Ingy getting into the CTA…

I was puzzled!! I was like OH MY God I CAN’T BELIEVE IT’S U! , the thing is I was just thinking abt her on the way and decided to call her when I get home…empathy is really working well with me lol.

I found my self screaming her name INGY INGY, and we both were stunned lol.
As I wanted her to sit beside me I asked my colg friend if I can sit on her leggs for a while =D.
I really missed her so much…and till now I can’t believe I saw her!
We talked and talked and kept staring at eachothers as if been yrs.
I was so excited as the beginning of my day and off course I couldn’t let her leave without taking a pic for her.
She also introduced me to a friend of her and told tht her friend was a fan of mine! She gets teenstuff and read my poems…she even search for my poems by name in each issue…
She said “ I’m so happy to meet u , I love ur poems ur so gr8 msA, and u sometimes makes me cry too , really I’m so so glad”
I blushed :B
In my life I never knew I was known..i never knew tht anyone really reads my poems..and OH MY GOD I have fans?!
We talked for a while and I was happy to know tht there ppl who believe in me..ppl I don’t know and never met…
Tht made me overwhelmed!!!

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After Ingy and her friend get down for their station…we were on our way to mahaad al awram….
Then after sometimes we got there and I saw the rest of our friends waiting out side…then we entered the place…and honestly I was kinda shaking and my heart started to beat little bit faster…I was worried abt my reaction.
The place wasn’t as bad as I thought…it wasn’t so crowed , but it was in action all day.
Big halls with seats, a cafeteria in a corner for tea and coffee, and little place selling some sandwiches…
Everyone was kinda silent…sitting , drinking and waiting…

I hate waiting..

Then I noticed some ppl carrying their kids..even old kids like 12 yrs old…
Kids were both gurls and boys…little gurls putting on small hats or veils.
Boys wearing caps..sometimes without…there was just no hair..

The building is so huge abt 6 floors or something…we went to the 4th and 5th floor were we visited some chambers and a new library they r going to open by nxt week..
And again there was a medium halls with seats…

Again many parents outside sitting…some sitting on the stairs…some one the ground..even some were sleeping on their bags *some ppl came from long distance*
We didn’t enter any of the kids chambers..
but ..
I glanced and felt pain all over my body…I felt the pain of needles , pills and chemical medication…
There were many ages…starting from 1 yr old till 18 yrs old…

I looked at the parents for a while…they were all sitting..waiting for the unknown , crying without tears…

That was hard…and when we were abt to leave…I started to tear…

well i thought abt riting abt myslef and thnx to who suggested and supported me =Dactually it can be like my biography...so here it is my 1st biography ever in my blog =)

Name: Shams Ahmed Mohamed Mostafa El-Hewify
Nickname: SunShine =)
Date of birth: 29th june 1987
Home: raised in Imbaba, giza had a life time in Zamalek living in 6 october
Studies:Faculty of Specific Education , Mass com. dep.

about myself:
I'm a poet: i love poetry and write english poems
I'm a writer: i love writing, it's the only thing i can do well *i guess*
I'm a musician: i played violin and now playing bass guitar
I'm a reader: i love reading novels soemtimes books, i love reading abt metaphysics.
I'm a human being: i think ppl r all humans no one's higher than anyone we r all gonna die, i hate humilation and stealing most.

i'm looking forward to be the best muslim journalist and take noble prize, i'll also have my own magazin someday isA..
i will

i love animals
i adore dogs as pets they r the best animals =)
i hate cats ans pigs i adore music...english mostly and all kinds of music starting with romantice and pop ending with rock and metal
i like movies...esp. comedy and horrer
i like learning abt super natural powers *ESP* and all the metaphysics world and i'm kinda getting good in it and even rit articles abt it
i like trying new things and everthing *almost*

most people tell me tht i'm empathatic, i have strong empathy ability lol and it's something i'm proud of...feeling others is a gr8 bless =)


i guess tht's all for now..dunno wht else to say if i remembered anything i'll edit isA =)
thnx alot for reading