Random thought-6

i don't know why i don't rit my diaries anymore, maybe coz i got my blog or maybe it's a matter of time or maybe it just coz i don't want to carry on from where i stopped. i think i'll try to open it one more time it a treasure of memories since i was in primary school.
i can still remember the 1st thing i ever wrote , and my 1st diary book...
i have so many plans to do for 2010....i'm looking forward to travel isA, i've decided i'll quit schools and take journalist as a career for living...i need to read more and rit even much more.i'm happy with were i'm starting , i'm meeting new ppl , making new connections and even writing in ARABIC i'm actually glad coz i did so.
i wish i can write many poems as i used too =(. i have no inspirtion lately and i need to astral project like i used too...
there is r so many things i want to do again like the old days, maybe it would bring my old soul back again..
it's not tht i hate my soul now, but i feel as if i got along with reailty world more than my fantasy world and it's redusing my creativty and transparancy.

the bouquet catcher

i love weddings! especially when it’s one of my close friends. when ever some one is getting married form my friends or family i just love to pop and hop and help the bride with everything. u’d say it’s more like the movie 27 dresses…

I've always dreamt of the greatest weirdest wedding ever and in every wedding i attend i add something from my dreamy fantasy wedding as if the wedding is mine…

however, when it comes to the time tht the bride throw her wedding bouquet and all the single ladies try to catch it, i stand at the very back or try to miss this event.

i don’t know but i never stand to catch the bouquet..maybe coz i dont like to catch up with the lady and fight over the flowers…or maybe coz i’m afraid of getting married, even though i dream of it but i still have a strange fear inside me,

it’s silly i know, the *catching the bouquet* has nothing to do with it, but if i ever really caught it i’ll feel i’m under the spot light as if it’s saying “hello guys there’s a single out here*.

and of course people will start talking ‘ ohhh rn’t u gonna get engaged?”

then if i got engaged they will go like “ ummm wht’s taking u so long when r u getting married”

then after marriage they’d probably say “ rn’t u pregnant ? don’t u think it’s time to get a baby?”…

lol and so on till ……..i don’t know !

actually if i ever caught the bride bouquet, i wish i’d find the one right infront of me…like fairy tales, where he appears out of the nowhere and we simply look into each other eyes deeply and dance together as we have known each other from long time ago…and walk together till we disappear from the crowd and sit and talk

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yup i know i’m a dreamer but i enjoy my dreams