i don't know y r the pills rn't working probably!!! , i can't stand those fast beats i have!! they r so annoying...
maybe i should change tht heart pills....or go to a new doctor?!

u knw wht...

maybe there is nothing wrong with my heart!!

For you...

I wrote you this

Although u r not gonna read it

but u know how i feel

you have been...

and you'll always be...

a very special part of me

it's too hard to let go...

i know..

and you know..

we'll be together

you and me..

forever..

in our hearts...

deep inside...

till one day, when we can be

together..like before

i was talking with my sister , when she asked me.."how is ur romantic life going?". i looked at her for a while then i answered.."umm..nothing..i'm just single lol , and i think it better for me to stay tht way "i loled. she looked at me puzzled,"y would u say such a thing? u r so young for tht". "i don't know"..i answered..."i think i'm not so much suitable for such relationships..maybe it's a matter of trust…fear?..or i just lost my feelings..sumtimes i feel i'm feelingless..am not like before, even when i used to lock my heart...i was waiting for the endless relationship..and my charming Mr. anonymouse...but now i don't feel it anymore,maybe it was meant for me to be alone…”
my sister is still lookin at me with a stunned face…
I tried to say sumthing chilly so I said,”c’monn I have a busy life over here…all I’m concentrating in is my career and future , did u forget tht ur little sis is gonna be the best journalist and have her own best selling mag….and offcourse…I wont have much time when I go get my noble prize!!...”
I felt she was like…*yeah…rit*
But she said..”wht on earth would make u feel tht way abt ur self?”.
“nothing really”, I replied…”it’s just life u know…”, “y do u sound like a divorced woman with 2 kids? Lol” she said.
“nooo , no way I’d sound like tht =D”.
“well u gave me the feeling tht u r a 35 yrs old woman “.
“don’t worry lol, I’m forever young”.
“yes Miss 20!!!”.
“look who is talking Mrs 23 =D lol!!”.
“anyway young lady..i’m praying for u =)”.
“I know…and I appreciate tht…just don’t tell mom abt our little talk coz she might think I’m nuts or sumthing =D”.
“you are =D..but don’t worry”.

:S uhoh…THE FOOD IS BURNING…

Why of all the people its me??? , or am i the one doing tht to my self , so much confusion , so much unknown feelings...

betrayed??
unappreciated??
or just a freak??....

fairy tales rn't suppose to end this way...it's not how it meant to be....

wake up!

WAKE UP!!

y i don't wanna wake up????!!!

Always On Your Side - Sheryl Crow

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side

Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I'd always feared
Leavin' you with so many questions all these years
Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally

This isn't how it's really meant to be
No, it isn't how it's really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally

Is this how its really meant to be?
no, this isn't how its really meant to be

Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away,
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wandering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side?

If I had one single wish

Id go back to the moment I kissed

You goodbye no matter how hard I tried

I can't live without you in my life

Maybe you’ll say you still want me

Maybe you’ll say that you don't

Maybe we said it was over

Baby I can't let you go

I walk around to understand

Where we went wrong and I can't pretend

It wasn't me, it wasn't you

But I'm convinced we gave up too soon

Maybe you’ll say you still want me

Maybe you’ll say that you don't

Maybe we said it was over

Baby I can't let you go

Nothing left to lose

after losing you

There's nothing I cant take

When I run to you, when I come for you

Don’t tell me I'm too late

Maybe you’ll say you still want me

Maybe you’ll say that you don't

Maybe we said it was over

Baby I can't let you go

Enrique Iglasis : Maybe

i'm not there, but i'm still around
nothing changed the way i felt
and nothing will ever do
no one really crossed my mind
i still can't get over you

i thought of ending up the connection
thought it's working
but still not for me
and this thing graped your attention
made you still remember me

someday you'll know
that i'm only away for you
and eventhought i'm not there
but i'm still around
i'm still with you

for me ,you are always here
i keep you safe in my silent tears

i wish i could be there all the time
in the bad, like i was in the good
i wish it was the way i want
wash away all the pain if i could

but still it's better that way
it's better i'm not there

still, i'm around
still, i care